I feel like painting,
I feel like dancing,
I feel like loving,
I feel like laughing.
Friday, January 31, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Dad
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you did not go alone.
A part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartaches make a lane,
I'd walk my way to heaven
and bring you back again.
In life I loved you Daddy,
and in death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
that no one could ever fill.
Though I'm agnostic and don't believe in the whole religion thing, one ponders if a God exists. I lost my father on January 2nd 2014. What a way to start off the new year huh? It's been a really rough week. Whenever I do things my mind isn't focused. It only results back to missing him. People tell me not to cry because he wouldn't want to see me sad. But if he was watching me, wouldn't he give me signs or signals? I haven't experienced anything yet... So when you hear that quote: "You never know how much a person means to you until they're gone." take it seriously. I thought it would be a long while until I had to lose my dad, but nope. He just left right then and there. There's guilt, regrets, memories, so much shit just rushing through my brain. I don't sleep well anymore. I don't eat normally. I can't rely on him anymore. It's not fair. Nothing's fair in life. Only got myself to rely on.
but you did not go alone.
A part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartaches make a lane,
I'd walk my way to heaven
and bring you back again.
In life I loved you Daddy,
and in death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
that no one could ever fill.
Though I'm agnostic and don't believe in the whole religion thing, one ponders if a God exists. I lost my father on January 2nd 2014. What a way to start off the new year huh? It's been a really rough week. Whenever I do things my mind isn't focused. It only results back to missing him. People tell me not to cry because he wouldn't want to see me sad. But if he was watching me, wouldn't he give me signs or signals? I haven't experienced anything yet... So when you hear that quote: "You never know how much a person means to you until they're gone." take it seriously. I thought it would be a long while until I had to lose my dad, but nope. He just left right then and there. There's guilt, regrets, memories, so much shit just rushing through my brain. I don't sleep well anymore. I don't eat normally. I can't rely on him anymore. It's not fair. Nothing's fair in life. Only got myself to rely on.
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